Our Kids

Piper has started to say “thank you mom” when I least expect it. Now she doesn’t say it all the time but usually when she does say it I need to hear it, it is like she knows when I get run down and she kicks in her “I love mommy” attitude. This morning Lela was being her usual self centered toddler self (they both are, it is the nature of the age) and neither Jason nor I slept a wink last night so it was all we could do to get up and get moving. She wanted an english muffin and I was making said muffin, so when she asked again I looked at her and I wanted to say, “can’t you see I am making your freakin’ muffin” but instead I said “I love you Lela” and she looked up and me and said “I love you too Mom.” So even though we are all tired, cranky, croupy, coughy, gunky, junky there is a lot of love around here:)

Landis has discovered that her hands actually belong to her and that she can move them. She has been getting to that place for a while but on Monday she actually really looked at them and moved them around purposefully. She is such a cutie always sitting with her hands clasped but now she can clasp them with purpose. She can also reach for an object that you hold in front of her. I got a video of her doing it and will post it later (I say “I” but we know it will be “he” that posts it). She is talking up a storm and even now that she is sick she is still letting us know she is there with her babble (only the sick babble breaks your heart).

I know my expectations are so high for breastfeeding and healthy eating and probably if I looked at all the info I would get a reality check BUT today I feel like venting. I feel like I go above and beyond making sure the kids eat healthy and that I breastfeed, in return I would like for my kids to NEVER get sick. Okay, I said it, I want them to never get sick, I know that is not reality but if I am going through all this trouble I expect big returns. Probably why I am no longer in corporate america, LOL!

On the flip side of my coin I know that my girls don’t sick as much as other kids and for that I am grateful. But like Jason said when an itty bitty gets sick it just pisses me off. The girls were never sick so I am not used to having an itty bitty sick, I am so helpless. Thank goodness for the moby, she can sleep skin to skin and hopefully I am passing all my good virus butt kicking to her. The other thing that really sucks is that the cough lingers long after the fever has left. So the poor thing will have that rattly cough for a while.

I am grateful that I can still breastfeed her so I know she is being nourished and is not dehydrated but it still really ticks me off. I mean hell we might as well sit around eating fritos (not really). On another note I do see the “gift” in this challenge. I have been struggling with vaccines and such and this might just be my wake up call that I can’t handle it if one of the girls gets a scary, bad disease that could be prevented by vaccines. I know kids will get sick and I need to just “man up” but I will do that later today, for now I am just PO’d.

PS. I know breastfeeding is best, I know I am fortunate to be able to breastfeed, I know that it is a lot easier than bottles/formula (from first hand experience), I guess I just wanted it to be the magic bullet everyone says it is.