This post has been formulating in my mind for weeks. As I look back at pictures of myself over the last few years I notice that I am often wearing a nursing tank. Recently I was going about my day and I had a feeling of something lifting, like a fog was on me and it was gone. Suddenly I felt rested, lighter, encouraged. I couldn’t put my finger on it until I saw those pictures of me in the nursing tank. Then it hit me, I am past the nursing tank years.
What does that mean? Well I can tell you what it means to me. It means I can now walk down the baby aisles and I have zero desire for a baby. I can look at little clothes, the latest gadgets and even see little newborn babies and I don’t want one. Zowie! I haven’t been in this place for about 6 years. Crazy town. I really do love this place. Now that I know that the baby years are behind me I can look forward, yes I am actually thinking about high school for the girls and what our lives will be like. I am finally looking forward to retirement with my best friend and husband! I know those things are still a ways away but by moving out of the nursing tank years I can finally lift my head up high enough to see the future and all its possibilities. How exciting!
It is wonderful that as mothers, caregivers or whatever we can be so in the moment that we don’t see what we are missing which allows us to be the best mother, caregiver or whatever we need to be at that moment. In this new place I am seeing all the things I now can focus on and how that keeps me, and all of my family, moving forward.
I guess that is really it, we are regaining our forward momentum. No longer are we up all night with babies, wiping bums, breastfeeding and all that goes in to the care of a wee one. We now have children that are capable of getting their own cereal, brushing their teeth and even putting themselves to bed.
The icing on that cake is that Phoebe is 90% diaper free! She is AMAZING with the potty training basically doing it all herself and doing it better than I ever could. She is wearing a diaper at night but even that is on its way out. Crazy town, not only are we nursing tank free but we are almost diaper free?? I might feel so liberated that I actually float 6 inches above the ground for a while. Don’t worry though the girls have a way of keeping me grounded so it will be short lived.
Anyway, forward momentum I welcome you:)